“Taste and See”

“Taste and See”

 
 
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Sermon — October 24, 2021

The Rev. Greg Johnston

Lectionary Readings

Do you remember the best meal that you’ve ever eaten?

Maybe it was the first time you tried a new cuisine and fell in love, inspired to learn more about a new place and new people. Maybe it was your grandparents’ Thanksgiving dinner, the smell of the pie baking as you loaded your plate up with family recipes that you’ve never quite managed to make as well as they used to. Maybe it was a good dinner at a great restaurant with friends, a perfect night that you’ll always remember fondly when you think of them.

I remember mine.

It was about two or three years ago. Murray was, I want to say, a little more than a year old. One night for dinner late in the week, a little low on groceries, I’d thrown together some lentil soup: carrots, onions, celery, some lentils, some chicken broth, some rice. Some toast, a salad. Nothing too complicated.

This was not the best meal I’ve ever eaten.

No, the best meal I’ve ever eaten came a couple hours later, from ShakeShack.

Now, don’t get me wrong; homemade lentil soup and toast would’ve been a feast for a couple of monks in mid-to-late Lent; but it was not Lent, and I have the appetite of six or seven of your average monks. And so later that night, somehow unsatisfied by my spartan soup and several helpings of Stoned Wheat Thins from the pantry, I fired up GrubHub on my phone. Let’s see: what would hit the spot? Maybe… one double cheeseburger with lettuce, tomatoes, and pickles, spicy brown mustard to be added at home. And… why not? A side of fries.

And then, knowing that the food would arrive when it was still slightly before Murray’s bedtime, and that there’s nothing worse than a toddler who wants your dinner, I wisely added a second burger.

So it was, as I stood side-by-side at the counter in my three-foot-wide galley kitchen, with my fifteen-month-old child in the learning tower beside me, sleeves rolled up, absolutely devouring a couple of cheeseburgers together, that I thought: this is one of the greatest moments of my life.

Maybe your tastes are a little more refined, but no matter what, the same things matter. Aroma, flavor, texture—these are the things that make food delicious. But the things that make a meal truly memorable are usually a little different: not just the food itself, but the emotions and relationships that surround it. You may have eaten the same thing a hundred times, until once, you’re just hungry enough and just relaxed enough and the company is just good enough that you remember it forever. Or, more often, the other way around. You love something you ate, and you get the recipe, and you try to recreate it but try as you might, the experience is never quite the same. Because it turns out that the secret to Grandma’s gravy wasn’t that drop of Tabasco sauce at the end. It was that there’s nothing better than to be an eight-year-old on Thanksgiving afternoon, surrounded by the people you love and full of mashed potatoes.


“Taste and see that the Lord is good,” writes the Psalmist. (Psalm 34:8) “Taste and see.”

Last week, after enjoying Shops and Louise’s baking at coffee hour, I was chatting with one of our fellow parishioners. (For the sake of the story, I’ll let her remain anonymous.) And she made a joke to me about how she doesn’t just come to St. John’s for coffee hour, but… it’s mostly for coffee hour. And I said to her, “You know, if you want to sound really pious and spiritual while also being completely honest, just say: ‘You know, I just come here to be fed.’”

Spiritual life, after all, isn’t so different from a meal. Most Sundays, when you come here to worship, most weekdays, when you sit down to pray, it’s probably like an ordinary home dinner: solid, nourishing, and forgettable. And it should be. I’m a professional church person, and I’d struggle to tell you about ten sermons I’d ever heard, or written; ten worship services where I’d felt profoundly moved. I enjoy the music, I’m happy to sing the old familiar hymn, I’m sometimes reminded of what a preacher said about this reading three or six or nine years ago; but for the most part, we come, and we’re fed, and we go home, full, but not on fire; satisfied, but not transformed.

But then there are those meals—then there are those moments of worship, or preaching, or prayer—that catch us by surprise. Those moments when God reaches out through the ordinary bits of church business or spiritual life, of liturgy or music, and takes us by the hand. For whatever reason, we’re in the right state of mind, or with the right people, or standing at the right kitchen counter and suddenly we “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” We have the kind of extraordinary experience that only happens once in a while, but that can sustain our faith for years.

And we tell people about these experiences, right? Just like we’d tell a friend about a great new restaurant in town, just like you told me when I got here that Jenny’s Pizza was the place to go, just like I told you just now about the best hamburger I’ve ever eaten in my life. We meet God in prayer and then we “bless the Lord at all times,” as the Psalmist says, and “his praise” is “ever…in [our] mouth[s].” (Psalm 34:1) We say to one another, “Proclaim with me the greatness of the Lord; let us exalt his Name together.” (34:3) We “look upon” God and are “radiant,” and we “let not” our “faces be ashamed.” (34:5) We come to church and encounter something awe-inspiring, we “taste and see that the Lord is good,” and when our friends ask us how our weekend was, we answer them, “Well, let me tell you this Sunday. ‘Let the humble hear and rejoice… I sought the Lord and he answered me…’” (34:4)

Right?

…Right?

As a matter of fact, I think most of us don’t. We “taste and see that God is good,” but we don’t, like, talk about it. Perhaps our spiritual lives seem too personal, or private. Perhaps our friends or colleagues aren’t religious, or it would feel inappropriate. Perhaps we worry that if we talk about Jesus, the people around us will start treating us like we’re that guy who stands down by Fenway after games with the T-shirt, “Jesus is Lord — Repent & Believe!” while 30,000 fans studiously avoid catching his eye. It can feel like, well, evangelism. And “evangelism” can be, for us, an uncomfortable word.

But all that “evangelism” means is “sharing good news.” Look again at our psalm. We don’t often talk about the plots of the psalms; they’re songs, or poems, not stories, and as often as not there’s no plot at all. But each one comes with a superscription, an introductory sentence that sets the scene. This week’s says, “Of David, when he feigned madness before Abimelech, so that he drove him out, and he went away.” (A reference to a story from 1 Samuel.) It’s not just a generic song of praise: it’s David’s song of thanksgiving for a narrow escape from a neighboring king, who he thinks may be about to lock him up. “I sought the Lord,” David says, “and he answered me, and delivered me out of all my terror…I called in my affliction and the Lord heard me and saved me from all my troubles.” (Psalm 34:4, 6) David invites us into worship— “Taste and see!” “Proclaim with me!”—but it doesn’t come out of nowhere. It starts with a specific story of a moment when David tasted and saw that God is good, and he wants you to taste it too. David has some good news—there’s something amazing here!—and he wants to share it. And that’s all that evangelism is.

If that’s all that evangelism is, then maybe it’s something we can do, too. It isn’t trying to persuade someone that your beliefs are right and theirs are wrong. It is, as a common saying goes, “one hungry person telling another where she found some bread.” It’s like sharing the amazing good news about that restaurant that just opened down the street. And I don’t mean just talking about how wonderful St. John’s is, or how wonderful the Episcopal Church is—I mean talking about how wonderful God is, what incredible encounter you had with the Holy Spirit, what lesson Jesus taught that really made you think. It’s about telling the story of a time when you were fed, inviting someone else who’s hungry to give it a try: “I’m not sure whether this is what you’re looking for or not, but why don’t you ‘taste and see’?”

If you want to know what this looks like, pay attention this fall.  Some of the members of our church have written reflections that we’re printing and sharing, in News & Notes and in the bulletin. Because it’s October, we’re calling these “stewardship reflections,” but they’re a kind of evangelism too, a way of sharing and hearing stories of good news, of the gifts they’ve been given by God and this church. Laura Scoville wrote the first one, for this week, and—not to embarrass her—it’s really, really, good. So read it if you haven’t had a chance. Think of the times when you’ve felt God’s love made real to you through the life of this church.

And then share those stories, with one another and with the people in your life who might need to hear them. Because I suspect you have those stories. I suspect you’ve had those moments, when God drew near to you; those perfect spiritual meals that you will never forget. If you are here today, it’s not by accident. It’s because somewhere, at some point, you have tasted and seen that the Lord is good. So why not “Look upon him and be radiant, and let not your faces be ashamed?” Why not be like David, and tell the story of the time you “sought the Lord, and he answered”?

Or maybe just tell someone that you come here to be fed, however literally that may be.

“Flying High”

We spent most of my birthday on Saturday in our old neighborhood in Cambridge. We ate breakfast at our old breakfast place. We played for a while at our old playground. And then we walked across the street to celebrate the arrival of fall at the Danehy Park Family Festival, where I had my greatest kite-flying experience of all time.

Danehy Park is a huge, open space—once a brickyard, then the city dump, now a beautiful park with rolling hills and walking trails, a flock of ducks living in some restored wetlands, and more baseball and soccer fields than I can count—and Saturday’s fall breeze made it the perfect spot to fly a kite. And, in fact, it was easy to count five or ten huge kites flying a hundred feet in the air, and dozens more zipping over the heads of what seemed like half the ten-year-olds in Cambridge. There was, we soon discovered, a stand selling kites for a few dollars. Given that our last kite is a crumpled, tangled mess somewhere in the basement, we thought we’d really splurge and buy two.

After a few false starts in Saturday’s shifty breeze, after Murray had finished an elaborate game involving coiling and uncoiling the string, when most the kids had gone, when I’d finally taken back control of my kite’s string and wrapped it back around the reel, I gave it one last try.

As I threw the kite up into the air, a sudden gust took it and I let go. I let the reel spin freely around my fingers as the kite flew up unbelievably high, past the shifty breeze over the baseball diamond into a downright wind a few dozen feet overhead.

And suddenly, things became a lot easier. Apart from the fact that the kite was nearly being ripped out of my hand and my fear that I was about to dive-bomb the toddler a hundred feet away when it finally came down, the kite became much easier to fly. I no longer had to run back and forth, letting out the string or reeling it in to keep the kite aloft. I just stood there—in fact, I sat down on the ground—and the kite flew on its own.

I realized, after a few minutes, that it was all a matter of percentages. When the kite is flying at an altitude of only ten or fifteen feet, a few seconds’ break in the wind is a disaster; a ten-foot drop is the end of the story. When the kite is up at fifty or eighty or a hundred feet, the problem’s gone. It’s not only that the wind is steadier further from the ground; it’s that a two-second pause or a ten-foot drop doesn’t matter any more.

It’s true, of course, of human life as well. When we are flying high—when we’re well-rested, and well-fed, and centered in our relationships with God and one another—it’s easy to handle momentary blips. When our spirits are low, when we are tired or frustrated or isolated (so, most of the last two years, now!) even something that seems small can drive us into the ground. And the further we can let out our strings, the more we can care for ourselves and connect with one another and with God, the greater the chance that we might have a minute, just now or then, to sit down and let life fly on its own.

I hope this fall, you find some way to help your spirit fly. I hope you’re gentle with yourself when you sometimes crash! And I hope that our life together as a church can be a way of lengthening that string, of helping one another stay afloat, however shifty the breeze may be.

(The kite didn’t fit in the frame!)

“Sin, Suffering, and the Hippopotamus”

“Sin, Suffering, and the Hippopotamus”

 
 
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Sermon — October 17, 2021

The Rev. Greg Johnston

Lectionary Readings

The ancient Greeks told stories about gods who were neither good nor bad but amoral superhumans struggling against one another for power, using us as pawns in their games. The prophet Zoroaster and his followers spoke of two opposing cosmic forces, one good, and one evil, in an eternal struggle for the universe. Modern fantasy authors invent alternate worlds in which their good protagonists struggle against evil villains, often with the help of a magical mentor who will make everything right in the end; Dumbledore always appears to make things right in the second-to-last chapter of the book, even after—spoiler alert—even after he’s dead; Gandalf and Aslan are unopposable forces for good.

These are all, in their own ways, attempts to answer one of the oldest human questions: if there is a God (or gods), and if that God is good, then why on earth are things sometimes so bad? This is sometimes called “the problem of evil,” and it’s a question that any religious tradition has to answer, especially in times of famine, war, or plague. The Greeks could simply answer that the gods are not good; one might send a plague upon you just to spite another. The Zoroastrians could point to that evil force working against the good one as the balance shifted back and forth. The fantasy authors—and it’s no surprise that Tolkien, Lewis, and Rowling are all Christians—point to a higher power who swoops in to rescue the more-human characters from evil in the end.

And the Book of Job gives us one of several Biblical answers to this question. We’ve been reading selections from Job for a few weeks, but we’ve been having so much fun with the gospel readings this fall—this is fun, right?—that we haven’t even gotten into Job. Job is an important and a powerful book, so I thought I’d spend some time with it this morning; and apologies if the sermon is a little long. Things kind of got out of hand.

The Book of Job starts and ends with a fable, written in simple, fairy-tale style. Once upon a time, there was a man named Job. He was a good man. And he was a rich man, endowed not just with seven sons and three daughters but with 7000 sheep and 3000 camels, 500 oxen and 500 donkeys and very many servants. (Job 1:1-2) One day, God was bragging about Job to Satan—as one does—how righteous he was, how humble he was, how grateful he was to God for all his blessings. And Satan said, in effect, “Of course he is. Look at everything you’ve given him! Let me ruin his life and we’ll see how pious he is then.” And God takes the bet.

So Job’s livestock are stolen, and Job’s flocks are destroyed, and Job’s oldest son’s house falls down and all ten of his children die. But still Job won’t curse God. So Satan turns to Job himself, covering him with “loathsome sores,” and he’s reduced to sitting in a pile of ashes in mourning, so pitiful that even his wife says to him, “Curse God and die.” (Job 2:9)

And then along come Job’s three friends: Eliphaz and Bildad and Zophar. And this is the real meat of the book, a series of speeches alternating between the friends and Job, written in some of the most ancient and difficult-to-read Hebrew of the whole Bible, speeches that go on and on and on, grappling with the problem of evil for thirty-six chapters of the book.

Ancient wisdom literature like the Biblical book of Proverbs, took for granted that good people are rewarded in this world, and bad people are punished. In his speeches, Job protests: I’ve been a good person all my life, so why is this happening to me? His three friends try to rationalize what’s going on, but their words are cold comfort. Eliphaz tells Job that good people end up all right in the end, even if there’s some suffering along the road. Bildad says that Job must be missing something; maybe he’s not quite as good as he thinks. Zophar is the harshest: surely what’s happened is evidence that God is punishing Job for some secret, hidden sin; he needs to repent of whatever it is that he’s done.

Over time, Job becomes angrier with God, begging for a fair trial with an impartial judge who can make a ruling whether he or God is in the right. The friends become angrier with Job, calling him arrogant and stubborn, telling him over and over that he must have done something wrong. Finally, a fourth friend shows up, Elihu, and he rips into Job for his audacity in questioning God’s inscrutable ways. God is not accountable to human beings, Elihu proclaims. He’s far beyond you and your petty concerns: “The Almighty,” he concludes, “we cannot find him! …He does not regard any who are wise in their own conceit.” (Job 37:23-24) And he rests his case.

“Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind.” (Job 38:2)

Thirty-seven chapters of interminable wrangling over the meaning of suffering and the problem of evil, and now finally God is going to give some answers.

Kind of.


God’s answer, in the end, isn’t very satisfying. God doesn’t try to answer Job’s questions. Instead, he asks his own, changing the topic from Job’s own suffering to the grandeur of creation. “Who is this,” he asks, “who darkens counsel with words without knowledge?” (38:1) “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Who determined its measurements—surely you know?” (38:4) You think you understand the way the world should work, God says, but I’m the one who made it, and you know nothing.

 “Who shut in the sea with doors when it burst out from the womb?” (38:8) “Have you commanded the morning since your days began, and caused the dawn to know its place?” (38:12) “Have you entered into the springs of the sea, or walked in the recesses of the deep?” (38:16) “Have you entered the storehouses of the snow, or seen the storehouses of the hail?” (38:22) “Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades or loose the cords of Orion?” (38:31) “Can you send forth lightnings, that they may go, and say to you, ‘Here we are’?” (38:34) “Can you hunt the prey for the lion?” (38:39) and on and on and on until finally, Job is speechless, and when God prods him to reply, all he can say is: “See, I am of small account; what shall I answer you? I lay my hand on my mouth.” (40:3)

And then God starts in on him again! “I invented the freaking hippopotamus!” he says. (I’m paraphrasing, but not joking.) And Job gives up and yields to the incomprehensible power and wisdom of God. And so—and here we transition back from archaic poetic speeches to the fairy-tale style of the beginning of the story—God made Job healthy and wealthy again. The end.

The Book of Job is a powerful book. It defies the easy rationalizations of suffering that make up the oldest psychological defense mechanism in the book: Good things happen to good people; I am a good person; therefore nothing bad is going to happen to me. Like the Psalms, Job embraces the practice of shouting at God, voicing Job’s anger and grief in prayer. And it warns us against being like the sympathetic friends who try to comfort Job with platitudes and tidy explanations.

But God’s response isn’t very satisfying. I almost wish Job had the chutzpah to turn the question back on God. “Where was I, when you laid the foundation of the earth? No, where were you, God, when I lost everything I had?” Because that’s the question, I think, whose answer Job really wants to know.


Our Gospel this morning contains a clue. At times, Jesus’ answer to James and John on the road sounds a bit like God’s answer to Job out of the whirlwind. God accuses Job of speaking “words without knowledge.” Likewise, Jesus dismisses the question: “You do not know what you’re asking.” “Can you lift up your voice to the clouds?” asks God. (Job 38:34) “Can you drink the cup that I drink?” Jesus says. (Mark 10:38)

But the roles are reversed. When God finally answers Job, it’s God who’s magnificent and splendid beyond imagining, and Job who’s suffering. When Jesus answers James and John, they’re the ones who are looking for magnificence and splendor, and it’s Jesus who will be suffering. He’s been teaching the disciples yet again about the difficult road that they’re now traveling on, about his coming suffering and death at the hands of his enemies. But James and John are distracted by their own egos. They want to be made his right- and left-hand men when he finally ascends to the throne in glory.

And Jesus asks them, “Are you able to drink the cup that I drink?” (10:38) I’m reminded of Jesus’ prayer in the Garden of Gethsemane as he faces his death: “Abba, Father, for you all things are possible; remove this cup from me.” (Mark 14:36) Are you, James and John, able to drink this cup? Are you able to share in this suffering that I’m about to endure? Are you really, truly able to follow me down this road that leads to the cross, with two bandits at my right hand and my left, not a throne flanked by the two of you?

 Where is God amid suffering? God is on the cross, suffering alongside us. When God speaks in Job her words can seem harsh and arrogant. But the God who answers Job so insufficiently out of the whirlwind, the God who laid the foundation of the earth and determined its measurements, the God who feeds the young lions by hand when they crouch in their dens, whose nature is so far beyond our wildest imaginings that the only way to answer our questions is to leave us speechless, this God is the one who became a helpless little baby. This God taught us and healed us. This God suffered for us and died for us.

And rose again, breaking death’s power over us, and extending the promise of eternal life to all those who came after him, to all those who drink the painful cup that this life can be. Jesus gives his life, he says, not just in solidarity with our suffering, but as a “ransom,” as the price he pays to free us from the power of death, to transform the meaning of our suffering. (Mark 10:45) The one who painted the stars in the heavens and laid the foundation of the earth is making a new heaven and a new earth, a new world in which we all one day will dwell.

During the last few years, I’ve found comfort again and again in words I read a few years ago, that remind me more than anything of this God who suffers in solidarity and who transforms our suffering. I hope you’ll excuse me for doing something I don’t often do and closing with a portion of a poem. It’s from a series for Good Friday on the 12 Stations of the Cross by a British poet named Malcolm Guite, and it’s entitled: “IX: Jesus falls the third time”:

He weeps with you and with you he will stay
When all your staying power has run out
You can’t go on, you go on anyway.
He stumbles just beside you when the doubt
That always haunts you, cuts you down at last
And takes away the hope that drove you on.
This is the third fall and it hurts the worst
This long descent through darkness to depression
From which there seems no rising and no will
To rise, or breathe or bear your own heart beat.
Twice you survived; this third will surely kill,
And you could almost wish for that defeat
Except that in the cold hell where you freeze
You find your God beside you on his knees.

Amen.

“Honor Physicians for their Services”

This Monday (October 18) is the Feast of St. Luke. I’ve always loved St. Luke, in part because Luke’s gospel combines the aesthetic beauty and the concern for social justice that I think the Church reflects at its best. While Luke’s is the most polished Greek prose and his Gospel provides the texts for the famous canticles so often sun at Morning and Evening Prayer, the Benedictus and the Magnificat and the Nunc dimittis, Luke’s is also the Gospel in which Jesus most clearly advocates for the poor and the marginalized.

Tradition holds that St. Luke was, among other things, a physician. So the Old Testament given in the lectionary for St. Luke’s Day is as follows:

Honor physicians for their services,
for the Lord created them;
for their gift of healing comes from the Most High,
and they are rewarded by the king.
The skill of physicians makes them distinguished,
and in the presence of the great they are admired.
The Lord created medicines out of the earth,
and the sensible will not despise them.
And he gave skill to human beings
that he might be glorified in his marvelous works
By them the physician heals and takes away pain;
the pharmacist makes a mixture from them…
My child, when you are ill, do not delay,
but pray to the Lord, and he will heal you.
Give up your faults and direct your hands rightly,
and cleanse your heart from all sin.
Then give the physician his place, for the Lord created him;
do not let him leave you, for you need him.

Sirach 38

Ben Sira, the author of this text, wrote around 180 BCE, in a world in which the practice of medicine was a radically different thing. To put it mildly, they weren’t exactly manufacturing mRNA vaccines in Hasmonean Judea. But even then, Ben Sira put forward this remarkably-apt summary of the appropriate relationship between faith in God and trust in your physician: “Pray to the Lord… Then give the physician his place.” God created medicines; let the pharmacist mix them, and the physician wield them!

One of the strangest reversals of the last year has been the treatment of physicians and nurses. The “healthcare heroes” of Spring 2020, honored every night with banging pots and pans, soon became mistrusted messengers, trying their hardest to promote public health practices, and later vaccination, to a public that had grow tired and, in part, skeptical. Article after article tells the story of healthcare workers who are burnt out, unable to believe that some people still won’t take the threat seriously, even after everything they’ve seen. Perhaps the problem is that it’s easier to honor someone for their sacrifice than to honor them by listening to their advice, and making some sacrifices of our own.

So I hope that you pray, once again, this St. Luke’s Day, for all the physicians and nurses and pharmacists, janitors and cafeteria workers and CNA, who are instruments of God’s healing for us. Pray for all those who suffer, of any sickness. Pray, when you are ill, to the Lord—then give the physician her place!

Don’t be her.

“You Lack One Thing”

Sermon — October 10, 2021

The Rev. Greg Johnston

Lectionary Readings

“Good Teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” (Mark 10:17)

We haven’t owned an actual TV for a few years, so Murray will sometimes watch Daniel Tiger or Thomas the Tank Engine or Mr. Rogers’s Neighborhood on an old iPad we have, with one of those covers that folds up into a stand for itself. We’ve been doing this long enough that Murray kind of knows how it works: how to press the little button on the screen to stop or start the show and so on. And then, when the show has ended, Murray knows how to turn off the device: as the credits roll and the music plays, you lay the iPad flat, fold the cover back over the screen, and—[gesture]—give it three little pats, and the show stops. And so I’ve sometimes found Murray, on a more difficult day, maybe when I’ve said it’s time to stop and eat dinner and I’ve turned it off myself, slamming the screen over and over again in frustration; not trying to break it, you understand, but because clearly, clearly, this is the secret ingredient to turn the thing off and on: you have to bang on the screen.

Except, of course, that it’s a complete accident. The cover is one of those magnetic smart covers. The video stops playing because the iPad detects that the cover has been closed. At some point, Murray must have closed the cover and then given it a couple taps, and, then it stopped, and—ta-da!—that must be how it works! And you know what, it does work, because every time you close it and give it those three little taps, it turns right off.

Human beings are uniquely bad at understanding which of the things we do actually cause the effect that we see. Psychologists call it “over-imitation.” If you take a chimpanzee and a human child, and you show them how to get a snack out of a jar—take the jar, shake it upside down, tap the feather with a jar, and then screw off the lid—the chimp will pretty quickly figure out that you only need to screw off the lid. The human keeps doing the other, irrelevant parts much longer.

Psychologists argue about exactly why this is, but I like to think it reflects the human desire to be in control of our destinies. We want to think that our lives are the product of the choices we make, and the things that we do. We want to be able to predict the future and to act in the present accordingly, so we put extra weight on the things that seem to make a difference, and we’re cautious about letting go of those irrelevant steps in the process.


If there’s one thing the man in the Gospel is looking for when he comes up the road, it’s control over his fate. “Good Teacher,” he says to Jesus, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” (Mark 10:17) Like all of us, he’s looking for answers. But what he really wants is a guarantee. I say this for two reasons. The first is that the sentence structure is what’s called, in Greek, the “future most vivid” conditional: if you wanted to rephrase it in English, you could say, “what can I do so that I will inherit eternal life, no matter what?” He wants a kind of flowchart: “if I do this, then that will happen.” The second clue is the choice of verb. He doesn’t ask, “how can I receive eternal life?” or “how can I enter into eternal life?” He asks, “how can I inherit eternal life?” He wants to be an heir. He wants God’s will to name him as the recipient of eternal life. He wants the legal guarantee that he will get it.

For a moment, Jesus plays along. “You know the commandments,” he says. God has shown you how to work the machine. God has told you what to do. You have the law. You have the commandments. Isn’t that enough?

“Oh, but I’ve done all that!” he says. “Teacher, I have kept all these since my youth.” (Mark 10:20) And Jesus, with a compassionate look in his eye, adds a commandment or two more: “Go, sell what you own, and give the money to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; then come, follow me.’” (Mark 10:21) You want control over your eternal fate? Then give away all the things that give you control over your present life, all the resources that let you do what you want, when you want, that give you the security to live the life you want. And then give up even more: come, follow me wherever I go.

 And the man “was shocked and went away grieving, for he had many possessions.” (Mark 10:22) There’s one thing you lack, Jesus says: and it’s to give up everything you have.

“Children, how hard it is to enter the kingdom of God!” (Mark 10:24) Jesus says. How hard it is to hand over control, to give up the illusion that we can control our own lives, let alone be masters of the universe. The more we have, the easier life gets; but the harder it is to give up that control.

 So “it’s easier,” Jesus says, “for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God,” (Mark 10:25) And the disciples asked, puzzled: “Then who can be saved?” (Mark 10:26) And that’s the thing, Jesus says. Nobody is able to be saved, no one has it in them; but they will be. “For mortals it is impossible, but not for God; for God all things are possible.” (Mark 10:27)

 The man wants to know what he has to do to be good enough to earn his status as an heir to eternal life. And he’s not a bad guy. Assuming he’s telling the truth, which I think he is, he’s like many of us. He’s a type-A go-getter who wants to do the right thing, a generally-law-abiding citizen who’s looking for spiritual and ethical guidance. But the answer Jesus gives him is more radical than anything he’s prepared for. He’s not ready to give up everything he has to get this guarantee of eternal life.


The irony, of course, is that if he wants eternal life, he’s going to lose it all in the end. He goes away grieving, because he has many possessions, and he can’t bear to part with them. But he can’t take them with him when he dies.

“The word of God,” writes the letter to the Hebrews, “is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing until it divides soul from spirit, joints from marrow; it is able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And before him no creature is hidden, but all are naked and laid bare to the eyes of the one to whom we must render an account.” (Hebrews 4:12-13)

We come before God without any of our armor. God slices away all the layers we build up to keep ourselves safe and secure: all the possessions we use to provide ourselves some level of security and independence; all the competence we’ve developed to feel like we’re good at something or other, like we’re making some kind of contribution to the world; all the reputation we’ve built up, all the esteem in which others hold us, all the value we draw from what they think of who we are or what we do. God cuts it away everything that separates us from God, for better or for worse, and we stand revealed as we really are.

“No one is good but God alone,” (Mark 10:18) Jesus tells the man. No one is good enough, that is; no one is good enough to deserve eternal life but God alone, and yet God freely gives it as a gift. Because the man is right about one thing: eternal life is an inheritance. And like any inheritance, it can’t be earned; it’s given to us for free because we are, as St. Paul writes, “heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ.” (Romans 8:17) It’s impossible for humans, but possible for God, because it’s impossible for us rewrite God’s will, as impossible as it would be for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle; but for God, all things are possible. The man wants to know what he has to do to earn eternal life. Do I just follow the commandments? Do I give away everything that I have? But these good works are like three taps an on iPad cover that’s already been closed; we have already been given the inheritance. We just haven’t received it yet.


Jesus closes with a final, surprising observation: that what we give away, we can receive back a hundredfold. These last verses are enigmatic, but I at least understand them as a vision of what can happen when we try to live that life of eternity here and now, when we rebuild our lives and our communities as if we were already living in the kingdom of heaven, as if we had already been separated from all that we have, and shared it freely with one another, and then received the gifts that others can give us in return. We take our houses and the fields that produce our food, and we give it to others; and we find ourselves invited into their homes, to share their food in turn. We give up our own sense of importance and identity, our own parochial concern for the people like us, our brothers and sisters and mothers, and we find ourselves surrounded by a newer and larger family that encompasses the whole community. And did you notice what’s missing? We leave behind brothers and sisters and mother and father, and we receive brothers and sisters and mother—but in this new family of God, we have only one father. In sharing what we have, we receive a hundredfold now in this age as a glimpse of what we receive in the eternal life of the age to come.

We do not need to think one minute more about what we must do to be worthy of God’s love. Jesus has done it all, and our possessions and power and prestige will be stripped away from us, one way or another, at the end. The rich man can’t take his possessions with him to the grave, nor can we. And so we face a choice: Do we hold onto the things that we have in this life? Do we stay locked away from one another, protecting what’s ours from one another and from God, and still losing all of it in the end? Or do we begin, even now, to share what we have with the world; to experience, even now, the blessings that come when we share our gifts with one another, and receive them in return? We do not need to earn God’s love or our salvation by following the law, or giving everything away. But we do have the chance to experience a taste of God’s eternal life here and now. “Let us therefore,” as Hebrews says, “approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” (Hebrews 4:16)